I find it difficult to watch romantic comedies.
As a girl, this statement stuns most people. They inevitably ask why. And I can’t answer.
It’s not that I don’t want to. It’s not that I don’t know how to explain. It’s that no one understands. I used to try to explain to people. I figured my friends would at least be able to listen to me. Even if they didn’t understand. But I could see their eyes glaze over. It was like watching the light fade from someone’s eyes. They would try to pay attention. They would look at you and the light from their eyes would fade while they zoned out. Then they would remember their manners and attempt to look at me while I spoke, with this faraway light in their eyes. It was years before I realized that the average person didn’t notice things the way I did. And so, I would stop telling people how I felt, what I thought, how I saw the world.
When you can’t be honest with the people around you, walls build. Continue reading “I Can’t Watch Romantic Comedies”